Saturday, October 31, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
I'm pregnant. I tested 2 weeks ago during the Vikings/Packers Monday Night Football game -- 2 days before I was "late" -- because, and I do have to admit this, Rocky brought home some really good beer and I wanted to know if I could have one. And I couldn't. And I told Rocky with "well, your boys can still swim." I wasn't really worried about becoming pregnant again. The last pregnancy, a surprise, showed me that we are still fertile. I've been worried since the miscarriage about being able to carry the pregnancy through.
And here I am at 6 weeks and still pregnant. Our first OB appointment is November 10 and we will have an ultrasound right before. My OB has already put my on progesterone, which is extremely interesting in itself. Used one way, it brings a woman's cycles on track. Used the way I'm using it, helps keep a viable pregnancy moving forward. The prescription is much more expensive than I expected: $60/30 pills. And I will need to get it filled one more time. At first I rather balked at the thought of paying $120 for this prescription. But then what is a healthy pregnancy worth?
And now here I am with the worries: will this pregnancy continue? if it does, how will Maggie react? And then the guilt. Guilt for moving on after the miscarriage. Guilt for changing our family dynamic.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
A fun new hair-do is always a must!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
But, I think my favorite part of today was listening to Maggie when she was upstairs, while we were downstairs, playing on the ottoman. She was rocking back and forth, practicing her counting "Yee haw! Giddy up cowboy! One!"
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Today is our 6th anniversary. Unfortunately, I am nursing a rather nasty cold and it is bitter cold, so our celebration will be at a minimum. Between my cousin’s daughter and the church, we do have a couple of options for babysitters so at least that is no longer an issue for us getting a date night.
I looked through some pictures to see if I could find a recent picture of Rocky & I to share. Unfortunately, living with a photographer who doesn’t enjoy having his own picture taken means I had to go back to my cousin’s wedding in 2008 to find a picture that had both of us in it. There is a family photo from the reunion this summer that might have worked, but in trying to crop out the rest of the family, the quality of the picture went down and it ended up as a not so good picture. Perhaps when I’m feeling better or maybe if the Gazette does holiday family photos again, I’ll be able to talk Rocky into a photo of just the two of us.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
So, Otis, Wiconi and I were walking this morning and my mind started to wander. As I walk along the water, I started thinking about TV crime dramas and thought about how this is usually where someone finds "the body." Then I wondered how long I would have to be gone before Rocky started getting worried about me, if something happened to me (this is NOT a dangerous area by any means, but TV crime dramas on the brain and you can see where I'm going). Then I realized I have 2 large dogs with me. No one would bother even a single woman with 2 large, vicious dogs right? But, Otis and Wiconi aren't vicious. They probably wouldn't even bark if someone came up to us. Maybe if I was attacked. And if I was, would they go right home? Or would they wander the neighborhood a little bit with their new found freedom, thus increasing the amount of time it would take for anyone to realize there was something amiss.
Then I realized I'm walking the dogs in Billings MT where it is very unlikely that something would happen. And I just have an overactive imagination sometimes. And that's why I no longer watch TV crime dramas.